I Love You

Save Me

She

HEY YOU GUYS!!! GUESS WHAT?!?!? :D

I few weeks ago, i entered a poetry contest. two days ago I got a letter from them saying my poem had made it to nationals! :D AND that it was going to be published! I'm super excited about this! It's my biggest accomplishment, and I'm just so happy to be getting this far already. <3

Farewell

This pain still lingers deep inside

In the way it knows to do

I can't forget cause time won't heal

All this hurt that's caused by you

If any chance you'd one day had

Of gaining my sweet trust..

It's long but gone cause now I see

Your precious Love was Lust

A hypocrite is what I am

I know you know it's true

And sins are sins and shall be sins

These things we can't undo

And this I end's my sweet farewell

My last rhymes here for you

With a smile here, my head held high

I hope your life is swell

Mine will go on unharmed and free

All the past I leave with you

Cause never again our paths will meet

No more "we" just she and he...

What i wish..

What do you dream? What do you wish?

What do i see? what do we feel?

Have you seen all this grief? Have you felt all this fear?

All that's hiding in me, won't you please come and hear?

 I write to prove points, so i wont go insane

just to try to move forward, without moving back first

I've opened these doors bringing pain and all darkness.

I just wish oh so much, I'd avoided this mess..

I feel fallen, destroyed, i feel all torn apart

Misfortune's come to me, so painful and slow

I feel I'm am scared of all that you can bring

I can't fly away, not with this broken wing

You can't understand, or you choose not to see

What you've caused all this time, bringing me misery

I have fought you  with Love, with much care and such niceness

But all you've made of me is all bitter with stress

I don't wish you the worst, but wish somehow you'd pay

For all the things you've done to me, bringing me much dislike.

Won't you feel what i've felt? All that hides in my heart?

Never you'll say, that's all you've said from the start

This time it's all over, but i will not give up

Although nothing's right, i just have to move on

I never have liked you, but all this you knew

all i know is that i..am so sick of you

The true beauty of Love

We come to life to find a love, the wonder of the seas
We live, ,we cry, we do so much, for those people we Love
With all of our hearts, we choose to fight until the very end
Where Love hides is a secret indeed
No human knows, till they look in your eyes
It's not about looks, but whats inside's that counts
To find that true beauty, the true beauty of Love.

<--me and MY love:)

So i know lots of people like pictures, so i thought, hey lets share some love. all kinds of love, family, friends, couples, anything!

friends:)<3

Tangled and tired

 Back then i was eight and you were like nine

I fell for you, it was Love at first sight

I know we were kids, and that's what's so great

My Love it was pure, a bright sweet white light

I'll never forget all the things that we shared

And the way that i felt when i knew you were there

I thought you were perfect, oh truly i did

your caring brown eyes...that dark brown curly hair..

As years went by, by heart grew weak

My Love grew strong, the pain so deep

You just liked her, and not so me..

Although i prayed, My eyes would weep

At times you made me feel some hope

Until I'd see you look at her

I'd cried and cried and cried some more

My feelings were a full blown stir

I came to think you hated me

And liked to see my pain

And that's when i pushed you aside

I let lose of this chain

I'd ducked away my feelings then

So sure of what I'd do

But soon there was a quick swift change

I grew real close to you

But years since then have come and gone

The times have changed so fast

And all is simply but forgotten

 I always felt an outcast

Unhealing wounds, covered with glue

Its not unharmed, these scars still marked

But Ive long ago forgiven you

My ship i have embarked

Not long ago, perhaps a year

There's  something you confessed me

About your Love, the truth you feel

Which changed all i would be

By then i had, it seems, moved on

My search for happiness

Where my heart won

I fell in Love, once more in life

with a  boy I'd sought change

When you'd told me, at last this truth

It seemed to me so strange

I couldn't think, I was unsure

What's what I'd wished to get?

I'd now been happy, yes indeed Till i fell into this net

So tangled here

between present and past

So lonely here

All this happened so fast

I feel so alone

facing all of these fears

I can't go on

without shedding more tears

Your always on my mind

This i can't deny

But he is in there too

Our love i can't defy

As well as our Love

I know that's true

I can't and won't lie

That I've always Loved you

With Love I'll never understand

These feelings felt inside

Such fury filled with heartfelt tears

Till God makes me a bride

I try living with smiles and flowers

To make the best of life

I try to make the world at peace

But things just end in strife

So that's how this Love was born, and lived

To be left with a person who would feed it with hurt

A life of misery, complaint and disaster

To land in the hands of a swift graceless flirt

Bringing herself and others such nuisance and pain

So I'll tell you, beware, for this wont end so neat

Theres a beast, she's let out, such frustration and fury

we're now too far involved, there will be so much heat

But i won't let this get to me, to this i will vow

I'm sorry for this heart break..Hurting both me and you

I've so much lived this sufering, and all it that comes with

But it is time to move forward, this must come to end now...

This one is for my friend, Juan. He means so much to me. he always will. But some things change, good things end, and i wanted to find the best way to help him understand. no i wasn't leading you on Juan, i was being truthful, i do love you, i always will. but right now, there's a boy, he needs me, and i'm planning on being there. I'm sorry Juan<3 you'll always be in my heart though..

my heart it lives for you

We've been together for some time

So many things exchanged

It lifts me up to know you're mine

Our hearts beating the same

These thoughts of you come rushing by

As thoughts will often do

That sweet warm feel, such winter chill

Each time that I'm with you

I find i worry day and night

About this Love we share

I fear you'll one day disappear

Since life's at time's unfair

You're like a dream turned somewhat real

I guess I'm still in shock

To know i am happy at last

I hope life does not mock

My Love for you remains as strong

As when it came to be

I'll hold you closely to my heart

So maybe then you'll see

How strong my Love's for you

And all i have to give

I want to be the best for you

With all i use to live

When time's get rough
I won't give up, i wont let go
I'll stay with you, today and more
For Love has no limits, this you should know
Cause a heart stands for life
Love not so far behind
My heart, it lives for you
All this is what you'll find..<3

<3our first kiss was in the snow..remember?
10/15/2010 to present..more than a year and still going strong babe<3
we've had our ups and downs but don't ever forget, i'll always be in Love with you
and that is no lie. Lucas..your perfect for me:)

Forever Me Poetryy: Blah.

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I fought, i struggled but i lost

A Love that promised me a cost

It hurts to know i cant have him..

no matter how much i want himm

Ugh poetry this time cannot win

I cannot rhyme, my hurt to deep

my voice unheard my feelings sad..

broken in half, this make no sense

the words i write, goodbye...

nothing more than dreams in a cruel reality

This is my internal struggle, my horrible pain

You, my sweet painful drug, got me feeling this way

With such throbbing temptation, its so hard just to think

All this aching tormention takes all over my mind

With just one simple touch, my whole body erupts

I hate this warm feeling that makes me go mad

Bringing cold out to haunt me, like a great swift get back

I know you don't belong to me, but still the hurt remains with me

How long till i can call you mine? dreams turning to reality..

Your eyes, your lips, your sweet embrace

Enough to make me feel insane

Although i know your no one's yet, it hurts to think that soon wont be.

I know i have no chance with you, i wish that wasn't so

I guess that's why dreams shall be dreams and that is where they'll stay

I cant declare all this to you, that sure will never be

But yet i wish, somehow you knew..but what difference would it make? 

All we exchange is done as friends, truly only that..

This first was fine, but's gotten hard with every day gone by.

Its not enough, i wish it was, but feelings can't be hid

I see you look at other girls, what difference do i make?

I'm just the same, not special no, that all was in my head..

This poem was made just for you, yet not so to be read

Just to be typed down into words, wont ever change a thing

'Tis true my heart beats just for you, that's what it knows to do

You claim my mind, my thoughts, my dreams, what else is there to take?

I haven't known you long at all, so why feel in such way?..

I'll just endure these dreams for now, some day they'll go away

What's real is cruel, in life alone, but i will not give up

My masochistic little self  will stand right by your side

Through good or bad, and all the rest, of life's sweet mysteries

Enduring all the pain, this is where I'll stay, with you..

Our Loveley Battle

I see you there just marching down

I know not what to think

I know i'm proud, that's true, for sure

But that's not all just quite

I feel like i'm betraying you

Since nothing's been the same

I feel i've been unfair to you

But what is there to say?

Your words, your razor sharp remarks 

They leave me with much hurt

I felt the need to disapear

Yet could not fade away

I've tried to make you see your faults

How can you underdstand?

It seems so dull to try to chage

The very thing I Love

We both have sins, 'tis true, I know

In time we'll both repay

But as for now, we need to try

To change our troubles, night, for day.

Our hearts are intertwined  as one

It's useless to fight back

When one is right, the other's wrong

Like yin and yang we bond

Being both adverse, we often clash

We musn't be abashed

In time as times will often be,

We surely will grow strong.

So as i sit and look at you

I think of just one thought

My skies are turning gray indeed

And yet.. i still Love you.

A Broken Forever

I see the raindrops falling down

Like teardrops in the sky

And so at once i thought of you

Without a reason why

You stab the wounds that you'd once left

Without a chance to heal

"No harm done," you must've thought

"There's no pain she will feel"

So as i sit and think of you

And all the scars untended

I wonder what i could've done

So Forever hadn't ended...

Betrayed..

You make me so angry

You make me so mad

All of this frustration

Just gets me so sad

I can't stand all this nonsence

It just seems so intense

I thought i could trust you

Oh trully i did

But you haven't changed one bit

You are still such a kid

I wont let this get to me

But won't let this all go

I wont let you have peace

So soon you will know

I'm not one to be lied to

In my mind this will stay

Now its your turn to trust me,

This all won't go away

So when you think it's all over

And your life is all made

Don't shriek in surprise

That you have been betrayed.

His lonely Road

I've seen a man walk in the rain

I've seen him shrivel up in pain

I've seen his head just hang real down

Wondering why he's in this town

I've seen him watching the young lovers

walking down by streams and rivers

It once was them and not just he

But that is what will never be

He walks tha path they'd walked together

The way they thought they'd be forever

Forever and always till death do them part

If only the could have their start

And everyday he wonders why..

They never got a last goodbye..