nothing more than dreams in a cruel reality

This is my internal struggle, my horrible pain

You, my sweet painful drug, got me feeling this way

With such throbbing temptation, its so hard just to think

All this aching tormention takes all over my mind

With just one simple touch, my whole body erupts

I hate this warm feeling that makes me go mad

Bringing cold out to haunt me, like a great swift get back

I know you don't belong to me, but still the hurt remains with me

How long till i can call you mine? dreams turning to reality..

Your eyes, your lips, your sweet embrace

Enough to make me feel insane

Although i know your no one's yet, it hurts to think that soon wont be.

I know i have no chance with you, i wish that wasn't so

I guess that's why dreams shall be dreams and that is where they'll stay

I cant declare all this to you, that sure will never be

But yet i wish, somehow you knew..but what difference would it make? 

All we exchange is done as friends, truly only that..

This first was fine, but's gotten hard with every day gone by.

Its not enough, i wish it was, but feelings can't be hid

I see you look at other girls, what difference do i make?

I'm just the same, not special no, that all was in my head..

This poem was made just for you, yet not so to be read

Just to be typed down into words, wont ever change a thing

'Tis true my heart beats just for you, that's what it knows to do

You claim my mind, my thoughts, my dreams, what else is there to take?

I haven't known you long at all, so why feel in such way?..

I'll just endure these dreams for now, some day they'll go away

What's real is cruel, in life alone, but i will not give up

My masochistic little self  will stand right by your side

Through good or bad, and all the rest, of life's sweet mysteries

Enduring all the pain, this is where I'll stay, with you..